The Ragged Edge Radio ....with Russ Dizdar

https://us15.campaign-archive.com/?u=012a44d6e7986cf7f82de120f&id=929f845936 RIGHT AT THE GATES OF HELLHADES PART 39 SRA CHOSEN ONES AND THE END GAME PREEMPTOR NEWS INTRO SUM UP Suicide of the Mind Jan 22nd, 2009 Blood IS My veins are the syringe. The knife slices, the syringe pushes. Blood dots, drips. Emotion-filled bubbles and rivulets that bleed out the pain, a freeing, induced euphoria of relief of one single emotion... pain. Physical pain. It is all there is. The blackness, the fear, and the despair. It all fades away into nothing. Tears dry on my cheeks, my breath slows, my heartbeat slows and I lean my head back, greedily letting the stinging pain from each slice in my skin wash away all of what was before they were carved. I’m thinking about death. Not in the abstract, but in the now. I want it to end. I want to end. The long stretch of living and breathing and surviving is over. All those days when I did not think of dying are forgotten. Right now, I desperately want to die, to find the peace th