Holding Space

In this episode, I sit down with poet and storyteller Taylor Rae Roman for a conversation about the quiet, disorienting grief underneath early motherhood...the experience of waking up in a new body, a new mind, a new identity, and never really getting to say goodbye to the woman you were before.This one's for the mom who loves her baby AND is barely hanging on. For the one who had the "perfect" birth and still whispers I hate my life into the 3am dark...then feels like a monster for it. For the mom who hasn't turned on music in the car in MONTHS because one more sound might crack her open. We talk about:Grieving the woman you were beforeWhy "perfect" feels like drowningThe sensory overload no one warns you aboutPostpartum depression and postpartum anxietySeeing yourself in your baby's eyesWhy none of it (the hard OR the beautiful) is foreverThe poem that says it allIf you take one thing from this episode, let it be Taylor's message to the mom listening right now: you are not cr